ext_175933 ([identity profile] lovelylana.livejournal.com) wrote in [community profile] fandomhighdorms2007-10-08 09:13 pm
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The Roof: Monday night [10-8-07]

Lana was up on the roof, thinking about her options. And wasn't really happy with any of them. Maybe she should just go back home the way Lex was always bugging her to.

For now, though, she was just avoiding everything. And everyone.



[Open as roofs are, though she's not in the best of moods.]
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[identity profile] cantgetnorelief.livejournal.com 2007-10-09 01:30 am (UTC)(link)
Anders had headed up to the roof -- not the usual way, but by taking his Glider.

"Hey, Lana," he said, maneuvering over toward her and sitting down on the Glider, feet dangling off the side. "Was wondering where you've been."

[identity profile] lovelylana.livejournal.com 2007-10-09 01:41 am (UTC)(link)
"Chris had me staying with him so I wasn't alone over Homecoming," Lana said. "He figured you guys would both be gone and..." She shruged.

[identity profile] cantgetnorelief.livejournal.com 2007-10-09 01:48 am (UTC)(link)
"Good for him," Anders said, the slightest bit begrudging out of pure habit. "How're you doing?"

[identity profile] lovelylana.livejournal.com 2007-10-09 01:52 am (UTC)(link)
"Terribly," Lana said truthfully. "And can't seem to stop myself doing stupid things. Walked out of class today."

[identity profile] cantgetnorelief.livejournal.com 2007-10-09 01:54 am (UTC)(link)
Anders grimaced and shifted his weight, maneuvering the Glider a little closer to her. "Hit a sore spot in class?"

[identity profile] lovelylana.livejournal.com 2007-10-09 01:57 am (UTC)(link)
She shrugged again. "Just realized I didn't give a damn and once I'd started walking, I just kept going right out the classroom door. Not that the teacher cared anyway. Barely even looked up."

[identity profile] cantgetnorelief.livejournal.com 2007-10-09 02:01 am (UTC)(link)
Anders wasn't any psych expert but he knew that didn't sound good. "Lana . . . how do you know the teacher didn't care?"

[identity profile] lovelylana.livejournal.com 2007-10-09 02:03 am (UTC)(link)
"You know," she said. "Maybe he did, but I don't. I just... don't."

[identity profile] cantgetnorelief.livejournal.com 2007-10-09 02:04 am (UTC)(link)
He'd been there before. "Because he's gone?"

[identity profile] lovelylana.livejournal.com 2007-10-09 02:08 am (UTC)(link)
"Because they're all gone," she corrected. "Everyone I ever loved. All gone. So what the hell's the point? Sure, I can find someone new, but they're just going to go too."

[identity profile] cantgetnorelief.livejournal.com 2007-10-09 02:13 am (UTC)(link)
"Yeah, but --" Anders faltered, realizing he honestly didn't know what to say to that. "Lana . . . "

[identity profile] lovelylana.livejournal.com 2007-10-09 02:16 am (UTC)(link)
"Maybe I should just leave," Lana said. "Go back to Smallville, forget about everything."

[identity profile] cantgetnorelief.livejournal.com 2007-10-09 02:17 am (UTC)(link)
He frowned. "Yeah, but . . . how am I supposed to keep an eye on you for Phoebe that way, huh?"

[identity profile] lovelylana.livejournal.com 2007-10-09 02:22 am (UTC)(link)
She shrugged again. "Doesn't matter. She can talk to Lex and have him watch me. Not like he doesn't keep track of everything I do anyway. Besides, you've got better things to do with your time."

[identity profile] cantgetnorelief.livejournal.com 2007-10-09 02:25 am (UTC)(link)
"Like what?" Anders spread his hands. "Smoke a ton and keep putting off looking into college and stuff? C'mon, Lana, don't tell me it doesn't matter. It matters to me."

[identity profile] lovelylana.livejournal.com 2007-10-09 02:26 am (UTC)(link)
She put her head down and remained silent.

[identity profile] cantgetnorelief.livejournal.com 2007-10-09 02:38 am (UTC)(link)
Anders hopped off the Glider, moved over, and reached out to put his arm around her.

He had no idea what to say. He just knew he was good at offering hugs.

[identity profile] lovelylana.livejournal.com 2007-10-09 02:41 am (UTC)(link)
She leaned into him, taking what comfort she could from his warm presence.

[identity profile] cantgetnorelief.livejournal.com 2007-10-09 03:26 am (UTC)(link)
Anders quietly put everything he could into that hug, as if to say he cared, and he wasn't going away.

[identity profile] lovelylana.livejournal.com 2007-10-09 11:23 am (UTC)(link)
"Thank you," she whispered.

[identity profile] neurotic-witch.livejournal.com 2007-10-09 02:10 am (UTC)(link)
Chris figured the roof was a good place to start looking for Lana.

"Hey," he said when he spotted her. "It's getting late. I was worried."

[identity profile] lovelylana.livejournal.com 2007-10-09 02:12 am (UTC)(link)
"Hey," she said, looking a little embarrassed. "Sorry. Didn't mean to worry you."

[identity profile] neurotic-witch.livejournal.com 2007-10-09 02:16 am (UTC)(link)
"I worry a lot," Chris admitted. "Grandpa says I get that from my mom. You weren't planning on sleeping up here tonight, were you?"

[identity profile] lovelylana.livejournal.com 2007-10-09 02:16 am (UTC)(link)
"Nope."

She wasn't sure she was planning on sleeping at all.

[identity profile] neurotic-witch.livejournal.com 2007-10-09 02:19 am (UTC)(link)
"Good. I can make hot chocolate again before you take your pill tonight," Chris said.

[identity profile] lovelylana.livejournal.com 2007-10-09 02:23 am (UTC)(link)
"I think I've imposed enough," Lana said. "Time for me to just get over it and go back to my room."

[identity profile] neurotic-witch.livejournal.com 2007-10-09 02:25 am (UTC)(link)
Chris studied her. "How do I know you'll really go to your room and not stay out here all night?"

[identity profile] lovelylana.livejournal.com 2007-10-09 02:28 am (UTC)(link)
She shrugged. "I promise I won't stay here all night."

At least not right here. Maybe not even on the roof.

[identity profile] neurotic-witch.livejournal.com 2007-10-09 02:29 am (UTC)(link)
"Lana..." Chris sighed. "Please?"

[identity profile] lovelylana.livejournal.com 2007-10-09 02:30 am (UTC)(link)
She looked up at him, tired and sad. "What do you want from me, Chris? I just... I don't think I have anything left."

[identity profile] neurotic-witch.livejournal.com 2007-10-09 02:31 am (UTC)(link)
"I want you to take care of yourself," Chris said.

[identity profile] lovelylana.livejournal.com 2007-10-09 02:33 am (UTC)(link)
"And I just... don't care," she said. "I've tried. I tried today in class, but really, what's the point?"

[identity profile] neurotic-witch.livejournal.com 2007-10-09 02:34 am (UTC)(link)
"Because there are people, including me, that care about you," Chris said.

[identity profile] lovelylana.livejournal.com 2007-10-09 02:35 am (UTC)(link)
"I'm sorry," she said. "You shouldn't. None of you should. You'll only be hurt."

[identity profile] neurotic-witch.livejournal.com 2007-10-09 02:37 am (UTC)(link)
Chris shrugged. "I told you already, I've been hurt my whole life. I'd be more hurt if you let something happen to yourself."

[identity profile] lovelylana.livejournal.com 2007-10-09 02:40 am (UTC)(link)
She put her head down to hide the tears. "Don't care about me. Please."

[identity profile] neurotic-witch.livejournal.com 2007-10-09 02:41 am (UTC)(link)
"Sorry," Chris said, moving to hug her. "You're a good person and you deserve to be happy."

[identity profile] lovelylana.livejournal.com 2007-10-09 02:43 am (UTC)(link)
She let him hold her, but couldn't quite make her arms go around him. "I can't stay in your room forever, Chris."

[identity profile] neurotic-witch.livejournal.com 2007-10-09 02:44 am (UTC)(link)
"I know, but you can stay until you're feeling a little more stable," Chris said.

[identity profile] lovelylana.livejournal.com 2007-10-09 02:46 am (UTC)(link)
She sighed. "Okay." And then made a face. "I don't mean to be ungrateful, it's just..." She sighed and shook her head, not even sure how to express herself.

[identity profile] neurotic-witch.livejournal.com 2007-10-09 02:48 am (UTC)(link)
"You're upset, I get it," Chris said. "So let your friends take care of you until you're ready to take care of yourself."

[identity profile] lovelylana.livejournal.com 2007-10-09 02:50 am (UTC)(link)
"Okay," she said again. "So... hot chocolate?"

[identity profile] neurotic-witch.livejournal.com 2007-10-09 02:52 am (UTC)(link)
Chris nodded. "I'll go get it ready," he said. "Just don't stay up here too much longer, okay?"

[identity profile] lovelylana.livejournal.com 2007-10-09 02:54 am (UTC)(link)
"I'll be right down." She managed a half-smile for him.

[identity profile] neurotic-witch.livejournal.com 2007-10-09 02:55 am (UTC)(link)
"Good," Chris said. "Otherwise it would be cold chocolate, and I don't think that would be very good to drink."

He gave her a smile. "See you in a few."

[identity profile] lovelylana.livejournal.com 2007-10-09 02:57 am (UTC)(link)
She nodded and let herself stare out at the sky for a few more minutes before getting up and heading back down to Chris' room.
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